A Robin Leaves the Nest (Broken Egg Dreams)

Hey, Ma
Look what I did to my veins, Ma
Look at my veins, Ma
I put holes in them
I let some light right in
I shot my soul into them

Look, Ma
Look at my roadmap
Look at the route up my arm
Look at my veins, Ma
They've got holes in them
Look at the light coming through my arm
Light's gotten in where the blood used to be
Viruses where the love's supposed to be
Vampires circling
Heart not pumping
Vampires dripping
Heart still just nothing

Hey, Ma
I shot myself for fun
Used dirty needles to cleanse myself
Used dirty words to feed myself
Gave dirty looks to half-breath nuns

Look, Ma, no blood
I get this heart running with gasoline
I run this heart through other people's fingers
I keep this heart pumping with coal and steam
I rip this heart out with a wooden hanger
Look, Ma
I aborted my own heart
My poor heart never knows what's right
So I ripped it out and called it art

Look, Ma, there's nothing inside
Never looked left in graveyard fights
Ghosts selling shadows
Shadows hawking pictures of life
Look, Ma, my blood's on my own hands
Ma, where have these hands been?
That's right, halfway through my chest
I tried to hold my heart to give away
But distance is approximate to where you stand

Look, Ma
I put myself in a box
Look, Ma
I put myself in a box that only opens with a special key
You've gotta catch the shadow of a ghost
You've gotta get my heart back into me
Look, Ma, I went and changed some names
I whited out myself completely
So there was no guilt
And no fear
There was no honesty
And now there's nothing here

This is the last time I'll call you, Ma
This is the last time this heart will bleed
This is a rhyme scheme built from obsessive need
Look, Ma, look at your son's heart
Look at him missing parts
A thumb for the plunger was just the start
Now watch him just fall apart
Look, Ma, I let the light in through my arm
I traded my heart for some foil dream
I write myself out of my own life
and I've got no heart in every scene