Drying Up

Could you dry up in conversation
Like an invisible hand
Crushing my heart to pieces?
I guess my depth perception is off
Because I got closer than I ever dreamed I could
It was mad, it was daring
It was everything in the world to me
Breaking every mirror
To avoid your own sad appearance
You think you're so clever
You walk with a lift
You walk with a cold hand on your shoulder
I walk in a daze
Holding onto something
That lives without a name
As my insides fell to pieces
I just wished we could make love again
To purify our dishonesty
Until there was nothing left to accuse each other with
You wrapped your hands around my heart
Cold fingers felt warm on the inside
And then you casually tore my world apart
You've got more blood on your hands
Than a butcher at his worst
His most toothless extreme
Does it make you feel better
To know that I've never been worse?
Sinister shapes spell backwards words
Round red robins
The ravens return
To push around the sparrows
You break all your favorite toys
And blame the toys for not being fun anymore
But the dolls turn their heads when I look away
They're all closing in on me
I was the worst toy you ever trashed
I was your sorry excuse for evil
Or maybe just the receiver
Divine goodwill is an outright lie
Better days must surely await
How could it go on being this bad
For this long
If it's not leading up to something else?
So I breathe with my lungs
I walk with a shudder
I sleep with the light off
And I dream of her again
I dream of her saying she loves me
As she walks out the door
To find someone better