For Heather

Razorblades for the lines
Needle for the powder
Shooting marbles
In the wrong place wrong time
Airbrush the beauty back into the world
Spread your disease
In robot form
Wearing glasses to avoid full eye contact
Sleeping all day to be up all night
The dream you couldn't wake up from
Hair dye and cigarette butts
Bleed your pores in ever changing process
You were new and exciting once
Now you're used up and broken
You came back to me with a smile
Like a devil
At my worst I forgave
Said "So sorry
So selfish"
Invited you in
To a home of new pain
We could start a new life together
I just had to leave everything behind
Well, I've left everything behind now
I've walked with death
I've felt the breath
In shades of loss
With angels in reverse
Running from me
Like a bomb
Set to explode
You outran everyone around you
And realized you had no distance left to run
Can you sparkle again?
Can you be new again?
Or is old the default setting
Of a wayward friend?
You believed in something
In derangement as a way of life
It was more than I ever did
And now I miss you all the more
For your absence
Be alive for me
Be there for me
When I need you
I always need you
Be around